Darci Khan, known to WWE EVOLVE fans as Masyn Holiday, left WWE recently. The reports did say she left on her own, and she has now followed that up with a video confirming why she left. Transcripts from Fightful.
“Hi everybody. My name is Darci Khan, formerly known as the Masyn Holiday and I have left the WWE. I left the WWE y’all. I did. I was very, very, very, very, very, extremely unhappy at that job. My depression and anxiety at an all-time high. I lost myself — like I would look at myself in the mirror and didn’t even know who I was anymore. It was that bad. I cried for months straight, and what kept me there is me telling myself, ‘You don’t know what you’re gonna do next. Well, what if you leave the job and you’re still depressed and you’re still miserable?’ Those things kept me where I wasn’t supposed to be for way too long and literally the day that I left, it felt like the weight of the world was lifted off of my shoulders, and I’m not saying the WWE is bad. I’m not bashing nobody at WWE. Love them people down. But it’s just for me and my purpose on this earth, it just wasn’t aligning at all. The things that I desire in life and the places that the WWE would take me… they weren’t in line.”
She continues,
“I had been thinking about quitting for a very long time. But like I said, I felt like I had to have it all figured out first. The day I quit, I did not plan to quit at all. It was all God, I’m telling you. Before I walked in the building, I prayed to God. I wrote in my journal at 1:20 PM. I said, ‘God, I need you to guide me through this practice. I need you to get me this practice’ because I was on the verge of tears the whole day. I knew I didn’t have the strength to make it through the practice by myself because I just did not want to be there. I did not want to wrestle anymore. It was an unbearable weight that I couldn’t hold myself.”
“I walk into practice and my coach comes up to me and she says, ‘What’s wrong Masyn?’ And then you know when you already finna cry? Yeah, it all just came out and she’s like, ‘You wanna talk about it?’ Now, backtrack. I knew that when I was going to quit that I was going to talk to my coach first. So in that moment, I was like, ‘You know what? Yeah, I want to talk about it.’ I was like, ‘I don’t want to wrestle anymore’ and she was like, ‘Honestly, I can see it on your face every day.’ She said, ‘When you show up, it looks like you have to be here. Not that you wanna be here,’ and she was like, ‘In this business, you have to love it, you have to want it. It has to be in your heart,’ and I’ve always known that it wasn’t in my heart. I knew that I could potentially be good and I knew that it could potentially take me places and I knew how grateful I am — or I was — to be in that position so, I held that near and dear to my heart but I knew that it wasn’t my purpose and life-calling to be the biggest WWE superstar. I woke up with that on my heart every single day and when you’re taking bumps, when you’re taking suplexes, when you’re picking people up, when your life is at risk every day at work, that’s a really heavy burden to carry every single day knowing that you don’t wanna be there, you know? Or that this is not fulfilling your purpose on this earth. So, talked to her, she was like, ‘Do you wanna go talk to Bloom?’ Which is our head coach. I said, ‘Absolutely,’ and I went and spoke to him and I said, ‘I quit. I can’t do it anymore. My heart is not in it and I don’t wanna waste your time, I don’t wanna waste my coach’s time, I don’t wanna waste other athletes’ time, and most importantly, I don’t wanna waste my time…’”
Although she wasn’t happy, Khan did thank WWE for everything.
“I thank WWE for every, every, every single thing they’ve done for me. For every single person in that building who’s poured into me, who’s helped me, who’s guided me. That chapter in my life taught me so, so much and it brought some important people into my life as well, and I’ve grown so, so, so much from that chapter so, I’m forever grateful…”
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